Mercury Retrograde reflections ...

Solar and Lunar Eclipse prompts!

I’ve been away to my retreat place for a week taking time to ride through the energy of the heavens as we emerge from a couple of months of past life clearing. Lovely Mercury is holding me in place, despite my tendency to impatience at having to wait, as the Sun and Moon throw eclipses my way. Eclipse energy is a great time to reflect on all the secrets being held. What I can see - also what I have hidden from myself. Giving myself time to look beyond the ordinary. So I’ve been embracing this opportunity to reflect on my sense of things so far.

After all, a quarter of the year has disappeared without me actually noticing. There has been too much going on that has distracted me from living bound by time. It’s actually freeing not to have to keep time, watch the time or feel time dragging. A cure for my impatience at last? It is a way of getting into the here and now that I haven’t consciously made any effort to practice. My first reflection is that I like here and now, in the moment living. It’s much less stressful. Even if my ego mind still wants to put in place a rigid structure bounded in time.

Being away from my usual space and place is also a good way to change old habits. The eclipse energy has reminded me that I still have some self-sabotage going on. Especially around my writing. Having self-published a book I thought the next one would be easier to birth. Especially as my first book has had enough sales to be in profit and some more. Whilst I was away I saw again how much I’m holding back on writing the second book. That’s not helpful as I have at least another seven to get out of my head and into the world. If I don’t pick up my pace I’ll be dead before I can do it!

I’m sure my guides were cheering as this prompt from the astrology of the last couple of weeks hit home to me. They’ve been waiting such a long time for me to have confidence in my writing. I’m still finding the Editor in my head switches on after three sentences so my typing grinds to a halt. Even though I did a blogging challenge and wrote every day for 1001 days (I have a fondness for Anne Boleyn). And have spent my life writing for courses, for other people and for clients. My second book is being just as painfully birthed as my first.

So to get me started again I’ve decided to share an extract from the book I am currently writing. Whether is will survive the editing process or not is for the future. Today I’m dealing with the way I sabotage by not wanting to share my writing unless I (as the Editor) consider it’s perfect. Even if the Editor has, as yet, been unable to list for me what would count as a perfect piece of my writing. Knowing that would certainly make it much easier. It’s especially annoying as I also have a real editor anyway. I found the process of refining my first book was amazing because I had someone who didn’t really know me or my subject working as my editor. My own Editor still huffs and puffs about it so real progress in shutting him up might be on a very slow track.

The piece below is called An AfterlIfe Experience. It is early in the book so that I can introduce some key themes for intuitive development. The most important one is why I feel we are all being called to understand the energy world as much as we understand the material one. To do so we have to embrace the intuitive abilities we all have. They are the key to building a new Earth for humanity. A positive and all embracing vision of the future our children’s children’s children can enjoy if we start the work here and now.

“As the crystal children began to appear in the early 2000’s, including my own crystal child, I finally started to make sense of an experience I had in 1996. One day when I was meditating I had a spontaneous astral travel. I ascended through the energy layers, left the Earth, travelled to the end of the Universe and crossed over into the Afterlife. I had been allowed to rejoin the flow of conscious unity that surrounds the Divine Source. In a sea of golden lights I floated towards that source in a warm, yearning rush of rightness. I finally fitted and was where I belonged. Wave after wave of unconditional love washed through, around and over me. I never wanted to leave this place again.

After timeless drift I was sent back. Pushed back. Protesting that I wanted to stay I fell down to earth once again. Gliding back through the layers of energy I recalled that I had done this many times. Coming down to earth endlessly for whatever divine purpose I was serving. The wrench from exiting that golden flow was extremely painful. I remember saying over and over that I no longer had a life purpose or anything to fulfil me. Why was I going back?

I came to in my room with tears running down my face. An empty space in my heart. Rejected and abandoned once more to this alien world. That glimpse of heaven was traumatic even if it was bliss. Down to earth once more I had no idea what I could still have left to do before I could go back. The days that followed were dark. My Spirit cried out for the golden lights. As a human I was going through the motions. Yet I kept myself here. Putting one foot in front of another in a life that I hated.

As my intuition opened more and more I often asked my Guides why I had fallen to earth again. They seemed to struggle to answer. Or, I thought, perhaps they really didn’t know. Today I know they were unable to tell me what my future entailed. They knew that I would reject my soul plan. After all I would often run in the opposite direction when faced with what seemed like impossible tasks given my past life karma. Especially where these tasks meant I would have to use my psychic senses in front of other people.

When my daughter was born it was clear that she was a battery of pure rose quartz love. A wonderful crystal radiating divine love to all. There had been a purpose for my return to earth after all. In several conversations with my guides I asked about her path and how I could help. They started to talk about the incredible intuitive abilities of all crystal children. All human beings have psychic senses though most of us have forgotten how to use them. We have gone latent and struggle to open up again. Crystals don’t do that. So I would need to help her deal with the material world whilst experiencing with her heart still in the spirit world. And that she would not really understand her fall to earth until she came into her full powers when she was 25. This is the same for all crystal children. They are still not operating with the full unity that will be theirs as they pass that 25 year barrier.

In 2012 I began to get guidance about how I would be helping crystal children. I have known for a long time that I work to develop intuitive teachers and leaders. Influencers who can help others open up to these human abilities that have been firmly pushed into the background. Yet I’ve also known that the process of developing has many challenges. I’ve been through quite a lot of them myself. That’s why my ‘how to’ book is finally emerging. At a point when my fall to earth has finally been integrated into walking my spiritual talk. And that being down on earth has become a passion I want to continue for a long time.

The spiritual energy of 2012 was to set us more initiations, challenges and advances. Challenge us to really live our beliefs. To bring the Spirit Within in front of our human persona. Those ripples are now passing. We are getting ready for a big leap forward. To accomplish it we will need the boost all of our wonderful crystal children can give us. They already recognise that we have cut ourselves off from conscious unity. That it is a ripple of karma from our Atlantean experience. At that point we were ripped out of conscious unity and abandoned inside our heads instead.

Now I am working with people who are preparing, as have I, to reunite in conscious unity. It’s not an easy journey. It requires a commitment to the ascension process and our part in it. There is a focus on our legacy. Each step we take will move the next generation closer to conscious unity. We all fell to earth at this time to make an energy shift happen. That means we will have to serve unconditionally. Something we are only just beginning to explore as individuals never mind as groups and communities.

Now I need to ask if you are ready? Can you step up and help to inspire those still struggling with the material world? Those who have found a spirituality but have not lived it so far? Anyone who has begun the journey but needs signposts or encouragement? Can you allow yourself to be the inspirer you were meant to be? Growing Conscious Unity is the next step.”

I hope you enjoy reading this extract and welcome your feedback. Please help me to put the Editor firmly to the back of my mind!